Post by The Lost Lover on Mar 17, 2007 1:14:48 GMT -5
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Fire
Cries in the middle of the night
Hang in the silent air
Noise coming closer
A scream is heard
Waking up to a terrifying smell
Coughing as I sit up straight
Looking over to find him next to me
The beds empty I start to shake in panic
Someone help me I scream out
Choking on the words and smoke
Searching for the door
Stumbling over things
My eyes being singed by the ash and smoke
Grabbing for the door nob trying to pull it open
My hand flying back in pain blisters forming on my hand
I scream in agony trying to get out of the room
The noise is getting louder as the rooms starts to sway
The heat taking it's toll on my head.
I'm being smothered by the clouds of smoke
I sit in a corner not certain I'll make it out alive.
My vision getting worse until everything goes black
My body is useless and weak not able to move
I hear myself in the back of my mind
Get up you need to get out of here, he's waiting
I hold onto my life by a thread
Someone pulls me out of my burning home
My life for the past three years going up in flames
Nothing can replace the things I lost
I scan the crowd from the back of the ambulance
Searching for his face not seeing him there
I feel a tug on my hand and as I look over there he is
My body rejoicing my mind not knowing what to do
He holds me close in his arms tears streaming down his face
He tells me that he loves me and he will have to leave for a while
I pull back not knowing what he meant by that
I look back at the house now engulfed in flames
The men are coming out of the house carrying something
I look at him and tell him I will be right back
As I get closer to the men his body are in their arms
I turn around and see he is no longer in the ambulance
I fall to the ground screaming it's not fair
He was just right there beside me he held me close
Is this what he meant when he said he was going away?
I sob uncontrollably as the neighbor takes me in her arms
I ride with his body to the hospital holding his burnt hand
The men tell me he went back in for me after they said no
He didn't give up on me when every one said I was a goner
Yet he was the one to die and I survived the fire
Days later I started getting sick not able to keep anything down
My mother had told me to come stay with her after the fire
I scheduled an appointment with the doctor to see what was wrong
I don't feel the same though it could be because he's gone
The doctor looks me over just to make sure I was ok
He took blood samples to see if I was fine
I sit in the room silently my skin feeling like ice
Waiting for the doctors results to the test he ran
Not expecting what he was about to tell me I was pregnant
We had so desperately tried to have a baby in the last year
I never thought I would have to raise the baby on my own
What was I to do I had to start all over but with out him
My life didn't seem complete without him by my side
Now to raise our child would be so hard but it's a blessing
I still have a piece of him to love and watch grow
Though he will never get to know his father personally
Through all this pain of loss and grieving
Something came out of it that I would never give up
Why can't he be here to help me raise our child
I have to travel this road alone it is now my job
His memory will always be with me
He will always be in my heart and thoughts
My last moments with him will always bring me sorrow
Yet they will always let me have peace
He's waiting for us my child and me
Waiting for us to come home
To be a family once again
Till then I will do my best and hang onto life
I don't know what this is all about.
[/glow]Cries in the middle of the night
Hang in the silent air
Noise coming closer
A scream is heard
Waking up to a terrifying smell
Coughing as I sit up straight
Looking over to find him next to me
The beds empty I start to shake in panic
Someone help me I scream out
Choking on the words and smoke
Searching for the door
Stumbling over things
My eyes being singed by the ash and smoke
Grabbing for the door nob trying to pull it open
My hand flying back in pain blisters forming on my hand
I scream in agony trying to get out of the room
The noise is getting louder as the rooms starts to sway
The heat taking it's toll on my head.
I'm being smothered by the clouds of smoke
I sit in a corner not certain I'll make it out alive.
My vision getting worse until everything goes black
My body is useless and weak not able to move
I hear myself in the back of my mind
Get up you need to get out of here, he's waiting
I hold onto my life by a thread
Someone pulls me out of my burning home
My life for the past three years going up in flames
Nothing can replace the things I lost
I scan the crowd from the back of the ambulance
Searching for his face not seeing him there
I feel a tug on my hand and as I look over there he is
My body rejoicing my mind not knowing what to do
He holds me close in his arms tears streaming down his face
He tells me that he loves me and he will have to leave for a while
I pull back not knowing what he meant by that
I look back at the house now engulfed in flames
The men are coming out of the house carrying something
I look at him and tell him I will be right back
As I get closer to the men his body are in their arms
I turn around and see he is no longer in the ambulance
I fall to the ground screaming it's not fair
He was just right there beside me he held me close
Is this what he meant when he said he was going away?
I sob uncontrollably as the neighbor takes me in her arms
I ride with his body to the hospital holding his burnt hand
The men tell me he went back in for me after they said no
He didn't give up on me when every one said I was a goner
Yet he was the one to die and I survived the fire
Days later I started getting sick not able to keep anything down
My mother had told me to come stay with her after the fire
I scheduled an appointment with the doctor to see what was wrong
I don't feel the same though it could be because he's gone
The doctor looks me over just to make sure I was ok
He took blood samples to see if I was fine
I sit in the room silently my skin feeling like ice
Waiting for the doctors results to the test he ran
Not expecting what he was about to tell me I was pregnant
We had so desperately tried to have a baby in the last year
I never thought I would have to raise the baby on my own
What was I to do I had to start all over but with out him
My life didn't seem complete without him by my side
Now to raise our child would be so hard but it's a blessing
I still have a piece of him to love and watch grow
Though he will never get to know his father personally
Through all this pain of loss and grieving
Something came out of it that I would never give up
Why can't he be here to help me raise our child
I have to travel this road alone it is now my job
His memory will always be with me
He will always be in my heart and thoughts
My last moments with him will always bring me sorrow
Yet they will always let me have peace
He's waiting for us my child and me
Waiting for us to come home
To be a family once again
Till then I will do my best and hang onto life
I don't know what this is all about.